The most impressive thing that I'll have to show for this break at home will be that my old computer on my desk (the one that got me through high school...a Packard Bell Pentium system thats been upgraded in pretty much every area but processor...a Pentium 133 will run Win2000 with 84MB of RAM and a $10 network card that I salvaged from dead computers...) now runs off of the DSL line in the house. Not bad for 50 feet of CAT5 Patch and one crossover cable.
I'm finally home.
I just want to let that sink in. Thats all I need to know and remember for the week. I can finally have an "old-fashioned" summer: sleeping till 10, 11, or 12...movies with friends, no thoughts of conferences, work, or anything other than relaxation.
So far I've gone to Hoyt's - now Regal, although in my mind, always Hoyt's - once. This was the place where I worked for three summers and saw pretty much every movie that came out for three straight years. Its the same old, same old... I did get to see Brendan though, one of the kids I graduated CHC with. Brendan is probably my oldest and closest friend at this point. We just hung out for a couple hours after work. Went to a late night breakfast at the Nautilus Diner down York Road. Talked about movies, life, graduation, and whatever...just a good time.
I needed that night...I've missed Brendan a lot. I feel as though I've never had a tangible past, that people have really just vanished behind the boxes of the various moves I've made. Brendan right now is my link to high school...hes a damn good friend, and someone I've missed too much.
(oh yeah, this is to any old friends who are around this week - give me a call, or drop me an IM...I have nothing but time.)
Tomorrow will be spent getting my eyes checked and possibly new glasses. I have no idea what style to get (although I'm gonna go for smaller lenses, as is my trend from the gigantic aviators I wore in high school...) but I just want new, unscratched lenses.
I think I'm going to sit now and try and get something written. I have no idea what - a play, or a scene or a short story. I just feel in the groove and enjoying this computer working again.
Oh yeah, before I forget - to all of my friends who are currently freaking out about everything in their lives - jobs, school, the fall, teachers, family, whatever - STOP WORRYING...it hasn't happened yet, and your worst fears aren't going to happen. Worry is so counter-productive and wasteful. Make your choices, and let whatever happens, happen. Then deal with it: for better, or for worse. Life is too short to keep worrying about what could or might happen.
Posted by Matthew at August 4, 2003 01:42 AMAlright...here we go...let's start this off from the beginning. Well, mainly, just about the job comment. You are still in college, with nothing to worry about as of yet. Wait until you graduate before you make any kind of statement about worrying about jobs and life. Although I also at your point did not think life out of college was going to be a big deal, I've learned recently that...yes...it is. Having no job to show for four years of schooling completely sucks. Being a graduate of a communications program completely sucks. Wait until you graduate friend. Try generating wages off a blog...it just isn't going to work. I've tried it. But no one cares about my daily rituals and routines. It just is not happening. So, in conclusion...change your major if you want to succeed, or shape your eyebrows and wear mascara and maybe you can get a job at NBC10.
Posted by: Brian P. Veitz on August 4, 2003 02:54 PM